開始病了，好，我睡，但又睡得不好，也許並非只是枕頭倒轉那麼簡單。
電腦壞了，好，我不用電腦，但事奉上的工作又快要到deadline了，總得想個辦法面對面對。一個大箱子裝了四個小盒子和一片卡子，減去能認出的盒子，就是我要拿的。小盒子放在大盒子內，以兩條線，連到另一個大箱子去。只是想取小盒子內的東西而已，弄來弄去，大半個晚上都拿不到，為什麼會這樣困難？？原來一個箱子不能有兩個主人，所以其中一個主人要被迫降格為奴隸，真可憐．．．不過，道理卻對極了，怎能同時有兩個主人？哎呀，暫時降格的奴隸，被其中一條線拑制著，拔來拔去都拔不開，慘了．．．
想做的總算做到了，生為一個知識平庸的女孩子，已達到極限，下次還是找人來代理好。
又想到，就是因為小盒子已儲有太多珍貴的東西，才不得不那麼費勁去把它們救出來。如果，本來就甚麼都沒有，就不用那麼不安，不用怕會失去了。
這幾天心裡有很多矛盾，不安又使我不能好好地睡，到禱告的時候才發覺好像少了為自己祈禱，應該好好安靜一下。有點混亂，又因為近來太多不如意的事發生了，人又好、事又好，甚麼都好，如果可以不用用腦，多好。
究竟這股不安要到幾時才完結？好像持續得太久了，開始出現半夜夢醒、鬧鐘響前睡醒等症狀。明知睡對於我來說是最重要的，為何偏要向這方面入手？
討厭極了。
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不安什麼時才完結？跟我之前問的一樣，但最後發現什麼時候是自己知道的，如果真的不知，祂也會為你安排吧！放心。
self-inflicted anxiety, huh? .. I agree with what you said that "禱告的時候才發覺好像少了為自己祈禱，應該好好安靜一下"
Among us, some are good at people, while some are good at solitude. It's healthy to maintain a good balance between these 2, instead of tipping heavily on 1 side.
It's worthwhile to reflect on how often Jesus retreat himself to spend quality quiet time with the Father. ... that's how He drew strength, wisdom & peace outside chaotic hectic scenes. ... suddenly, a song comes to my mind:
With Christ in the vessel we can (smile at the song) x4
.. as we go sailing home
....
sometimes, mishaps can actually bring us closer to God by stopping, asking, reflecting & re-organizing our hectic lives. The scene is like God standing outside the door, knocking & then ask us "What seems to be troubling you now?"
yeah, i agree, and retreat is really important to everyone of us. When there so many things happening around us, we will easily forget the basic...
"anxiety"- I've got this all the time.. yes.. and it got reflected in my dreams usually . for example.. I "dreamt" of my ppt crashed everytime when I tried to present my conf paper and also a ppt full of lovely Kittens photos keep poping up.. I laughed at it when I woke up and went for a walk to ease such tense feeling within..
if u cannot fix the cause for now.. at least take a few very deep breath whenever u feel a bit disorientated.. it will help u to get through this stage easier..
also smell some "lavendar" scent before u go to bed, my dear..
all is well soon again..go through it and then the sun is on the other side..
大家姐!謝謝妳那越洋而來的安慰：）
昨天我靈修的時候，神亦親自的安慰了我，送了我很美好的訊息：
腓立比書第4章
4 你們要靠主常常喜樂。我再說，你們要喜樂。
6 應當一無罣慮，只要凡事藉著禱告、祈求，和感謝，將你們所要的告訴。
7 神所賜、出人意外的平安必在基督耶穌裡保守你們的心懷意念。
13 我靠著那加給我力量的，凡事都能做。
雖然，昨晚最後都是不能睡得好，但是，那不安的感覺已經消去了：）
我也覺得這個週末心裡的不安終於有些微減少的情況，只是還沒有那種碩大信心全然交托給 神。畢竟什麼也不做只是憑信心等待著這課題，對於我來說還是很難。可是，多次撞板之後，還是會「知驚」和「知衰」的。
這個週末過得還快，明日又要上班去。
"半夜夢醒、鬧鐘響前睡醒" same here ~~~ 做人真慘
你好像很灰、不太想做人的樣子:p別嚇我呀！！！！是否工作壓力太大了？
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